Tears

I seen a broken school girl today

crying over a boy

I wanted to go over and hug her

I felt her pain

I wanted to say - guess what honey after all these years I finally understand

I never thought I would

I never thought i had a heart to break

but guess what I found it, and I feel your pain - finally

and I would love to say

honey, he's not worth it, but deep down

I knew i would be lying.....

because LOVE is worth it.

LOVE



But it's not a choice is it;

You find yourself in a river,

when you don't remember flying down the stream

It's like drowning in the ocean,

when the last time you checked you were standing safely above the sand

It's bite you didn't feel

now the venom is creeping into your skin, attacking your cells

taking over, you're trying to stay alive, but the poison

is in control, it's intoxicating your brain

You try to fight it, but you can't, every thoughts leads you back there

you think and think and think until you are exhausted

and even then you are still not out of thoughts

round and round they go

You chose to stop,

you fight against it,

but its useless

I didn't chose you,

nor did you chose me,

but after what i learnt by loving you

if it was a choice

I would choose to stop loving you

I would also choose to love you all over again

Weekend Fun Times

              

Minutes

every minute is a minute you will never get back - EVER
Every day is a day you will never get back - EVER
I realised today I have already wasted 3650 days on you
I can't be bound by your words anymore
Today - I am free to walk in the victory of defeat....... you no longer exist.
Future - welcome
Let's play.

Stolen - A Novel - (an excerpt.)

As the window came crashing down and pieces of broken glass shattered  all over her room, her mind started to fill with darkness and despair, staring down at the broken pieces of glass, she didn’t see shattered glass, she didn’t see a broken window.. she seen

A broken life. 

In that moment, all she could think about was how in the same way, you had shattered her world, tore her to shreds, ripped her soul apart, and left her for dead.

Bella walked over and sat on the edge of her bed, turning her back to the glass scattered all over the room, refusing to acknowledge it, the way she had done many times before. Maybe then it would go away, maybe just then when she turned around again, the window wouldn't be broken, the rain wouldn't be pouring through the window, the sun would be shining as it was yesterday and she wouldn't be surrounded by broken glass and an empty frame which was once a window.

She wrapped her arms around her protectively, trying to stop the shivering, trying to reasure herself, that it was over and that it was  glass, that she would have it fixed in the morning. 

She didn't seem convinced. Her arms were sore, they had been shielding that body for too long, she couldn't hold them up anymore, they too felt bruised and broken. Although just like her, it wasn't obvious by looking at them, they were soft and moisturised, they seemed to be in tact, like they had never had a hard day's labour in their short little life, although inside, she was sure the ligaments were tearing, the bones cracking....

I wonder GOD, she thought. I wonder why you spared me? Death surely would have been a way out, simple easy? But I asked you to live and now that I am alive? How do I survive? The wind will always blow and there will be times when the glass shatters, how will I clean it and not cut my fingers open?

 This is glass I am dealing with..... sharp edged glass...

how God she cried?

How?

Welcome To My World

From the moment I laid eyes on you, I have not been able to get you out of my mind.

Boy have I tried. I know I cannot afford you right now, so I pushed you to the back of my mind

trying really hard to forget about you, until one day I may be able to afford you

only

to wake up each morning with thoughts leading straight back to you

I gaze upon your photograph and see

that soft tan skin, that perfectly shaped wooden heel, and those laces, completing the already beautiful exterior

oh how I would love nothing more than to have you wrapped around my legs,

tightened, not letting go, taking each step with me

How divine we would look together and how you would add to my already complete life

I can no longer resist,

today I swipe my card and await patiently for you to arrive

nicely packaged, without a mark, coming into my life where you belong

and where I will welcome you with open arms and wrap you on around my legs as promised

let's play together, let's walk together, let's make memories together

I know it's going to be fun, we might walk some hard roads,

there might be some rain, even some puddles,

but that's ok, because you were made for me

and I for you and together we can whether the storms and both survive

unmarked, unscratched,

as long as you stayed wrapped around me, and I continue to fasten those laces whenever they come loose

I promise to take great care of you

always treat you with the delicacy, love and divine respect that someone as precious and as beautiful

as you deserves

Welcome to my world

MY NEW Jeffery Campbells!!

Romance Novel

So I am wondering if writing a romance novel without the predictable happy ending will still be as effective?

books, glorious books and the places they live

Land So Far

she stands lost and broken

alone in a world so dark

masked by your voice in a land so far

what once was close and near now gone

the beat brings me closer

the darkness engulfs, envelopes

it hangs over dawn

the beat is loud, it is clear, it is drumming in my ear

I hear such a sound and through the dark it breaks

rays of light it creates 

A better day it makes, the beat alone

makes me feel like i have come home

this is where I long to be 

this day is one i would enjoy to see

the music it feeds my soul

makes me feel complete and whole

Photo: SuzanneLouise