I don't know if I could ever love anyone
but I like you enough, that I would like to try
I'm not safe, Im unpredictable and irrational
And often turbulent'
I am a risk - not a safe bet - A gamble
I am terrified of my own hearts of it constant need for whatever it wants
I tend to run from whatever it is that makes me feeling like I'm risking it all,
but I am prepared to try and stay
I'm not sure if staying around will calm the turbulence in your head (I hope it would). I feel like we always end up running anyways. However, you don't have much to lose by trying to stay. So why not? (if there is someone in the picture, don't start second guessing yourself and assuming you're too much of a lost cause/too unpredictable)
ReplyDeleteGod you hit the nail on the head with this one. I almost want to send this to the person I'm considering just so he can have a better view inside of my head. I have found myself already starting to run and apologizing for the shifts in my moods and all of the shit that's boiled up in my past. I don't want to keep apologizing for what my brain is but I don't want to miss out on him either. I think. The mind is cruel.
ReplyDelete^ Mind is fucking cruel. What Emma said
DeleteEmma Jane. Send it. I am starting to learn the my biggest regrets in life have been 'the words left unsaid'
Deletex What makes your mind so wonderful is the mystery and life it has lived. It's granted you empathy. A rare quality.xx