Fallen Angel

I thought you were perfect, but I was misguided, mislead, deceived 

your thoughts, your words, your sentences, oh how they sounded so perfect and rang so true, 

they were everything my heart had waited for and more

suddenly it was real.

Every word, ever so true, ever so real, even more so a contradiction to the last, 
for you mean what you say and say what you mean but even you dont know what that is..

to be inside your head, is it all clear in there with a map and directions of where to go - are you aware of your game?

or are you struggling, lying to yourself, trying to figure it out ....
bringing the world in with you, into your little world and game.

or are you just fighting what you really want

just like the rest of us

trying to heal the pain

or are you the one that is completely aware of your game

built a foundation of deceit and lies, known all too well

living each moment 

hurting more than the last

you enter their world

and take what's not yours

in the hope that you may mask the pain 

each day something new to gain, something that is not yours 

you awake empty 

searching, hunting, for a moment of gratitude

another moment of admirantion and praise

its not enough to replace a lifetime of hurt, rejection and pain

you abuse whats not yours and leave

another victim, you search to find

another life you choose to destroy

Leaving behind a string of broken hearts, shattered lives,

they trusted you, they let you in, open hearted

They didn't see your own hidden agenda, they trusted you, they let you in, they loved you, they nurtured you, they let you in

You are blinded to your own needs, another hit you desired, another step up the platform of gains, another score

in order to mask your own pain with this very little evil game

A pain that will only grow stronger with the more you destory

Outside is all smiles and beautiful piercing eyes

Inside lies a rotten weed growing with greed, envy and lust

for what is not yours

Willing to destory anything and anyone

in order to get yourself to a place you could never alone go

I wish you all the best,

I pray that you will look deep inside

and see the rotten heart that you hide,

hidden beneath the smile and the golden locks

lays a ship, stranded at the docks,

anchored deep within, a soul of lies and bitterness

seeking to find and destroy

so for a moment you will feel that gratitude and praise

the high of being wanted, needed and desired,

for a moment you feel like you have won,

and uplifted and high once again

until that too will die and you leave in search

of another life to destroy.