Today -

Today I am not the person I was yesterday
I am not the person who liked to read, write and play
I have discovered a depth I havent known before
and that...
I should not let go of
so close so near on the surface of it all
it hurts to much to acknowledge
but even more to just forget
maybe living in the memory and the pain is better than the hopelessness of the present mind
Mind oh mind return to thy former state
one where love was real and life felt lived
I feel like I am merely existing
an empty shell -
one with life but without water
dehydrated and drawn out
I want to live again, to have hope to be me
free, as free as I once was